Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Onward and Upward
Saturday, September 24, 2011
The Challenges Continue
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Summertime and the living is...
There have been a few changes since the last blog entry. I apologize for the rather large gap between postings but in addition to the usual physical challenges for Christopher there have also been some psychological and cognitive issues (chemo brain is real!) related to his cancer battle. Not to mention the ensuing behavior changes that go along with that. I have not been back to work full time since this started and I know the financial stresses of that weigh into that equation as well. It has been a huge challenge to say the least, but as summer is coming to a close, we are both still standing...sometimes I too feel like on one leg only...but we press on.
As I mentioned in the last blog back in April, Chris had opted out of the last two months of his 6 month chemo protocol and was going to start interferon treatments. That never happened due to both insurance companies denying the claim as it is not traditionally used to treat cancer. Because Christopher was not (and is not) in remission he still needed to have some form of aggressive treatment. He definitely was clear about not wanting to go back in the hospital for more chemotherapy, so he agreed to begin the chemo pills which he still takes at home. It was not the Dr.'s first choice. As I mentioned in an earlier blog it is just palliative, but hopefully it is slowing down the process so that they can limit the number of surgeries to remove what is on his lungs. The open thoracotomy is a very invasive procedure which he would have to have on both lungs and his body just cannot handle too many of them. Because the last chest CT did not show the lesions to be creating any problems at this point, the Oncologists and Surgeon decided to wait before going in again. Which was fine with us!
Just to clarify, the pills are not meant to get rid of the existing lung lesions, just intended to slow down whatever cancer cells (the metastases) that are traveling through his system. He takes them for 14 days and is off for 14 day. He does get a little nausea, loss of appetite and his hair is not growing the way he would like but this protocol is much more tolerable for him than the alternative. The only thing he has to do is blood work before and after he finishes and an exam once a month. His counts will not drop as drastically as with the inpatient chemotherapy but he can get quite low and fatigued. His port was removed in July as a leak in the line had been causing him some shoulder pain, so without that he does not have to be rushed to the ER at the onset of a fever.
Chris has been quite involved with Wolfson's Children's Hospital. In addition to being on the children's Board of Directors, We were asked to attend a lunch, representing the Oncology Unit, where a very large donation was made to the hospital. Christopher also got to throw out the first pitch at two Jacksonville Sun's games which was pretty exciting for him. Karen Wolfson is also doing a biography on Christopher to present to the Board, more specifically the behavior challenges that can go along with the type of ordeal he has been through, in hopes of getting more funding for the hospital's Psychiatric/Behavioral Departments. In January he will participate in the hospital's birthday celebration/fashion show fundraiser. I am including a poem at the end of this that Christopher wrote for that event.
Tomorrow Chris will see his oncologist for a routine exam and blood work. We will find out then when his next Chest CT and bone scan will be. Until then it is back to school for him and WE BOTH look forward to a healthier, more productive and prosperous year!
Many thanks to all of you, near and far, who continue to support us with your kind thoughts and prayers! With much love and peace, Patty
Thanks to Ana for these pictures of Christopher and for giving him a little Colombian culture!Unpredictability's
They say life is interesting,
both good and bad,
fun and painful.
It is these unpredictability's that make this true.
Whether it be winning the prize of a lifetime,
or your life being forever changed by disease or accident.
It is these unpredictability's that make life what it is...interesting.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
"The Best Day of My Life"
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Thursday, March 10, 2011
Thoughts from Christopher
Friday, March 4, 2011
No More Chemo
Thankfully the 4th round was a bit easier on him, as far as nausea and vomiting goes anyway, but not without complications. All things considered, one of his better weeks which may have been due to the abscence of Ifosfamide or just plain Grace.
Still, before the week was over he felt pretty strongly that he had just had his last round of in-patient chemo. He didn't say much about it, just that he came to that decision and was positive that he did not want anymore chemo regardless of what his tests showed.
At his pre-chemo clinic appointment the oncologist told Chris that somehow these kids know when they have had enough and she had learned to respect that rather than try and figure out how and why. She said at this point it is more important for Chris to think about the quality of his life and the things he wants to do. There are other options available to him, such as the chemo pill that he can take at home, that may be easier to tolerate but more importantly lend itself to a more "normal" lifestyle for him. Their preference was that Christopher finish his 6 month/6 rounds of chemo protocol and re-evaluate after the final scans. Oh well...none of this has ever gone "according to plan" . At this point I believe it is out of all our hands and most likely Christopher has a better (deeper) insight into all of this than myself and his Dr.'s. I told him I would back whatever decision he made.
His last bone scan was clear...great news, but there is a possible "issue" with the chest CT he had last week. In typical fashion, in almost a week I have not gotten any answers or even clarification on the results. We have a meeting tomorrow with his oncologist to (hopefully) go over his CT now that it has been reviewed by his thoracic surgeon as well as the other oncologists.
Based on that outcome will also be the discussion on what comes next. Chris is not even sure he wants to do the chemo pill...especially if there is more evidence of disease. He may consider some sort of alternative treatment but as always is just trying to stay with today and not get too far ahead. Admittedly he is much better at that me!
He is very much looking forward to his trip to CA and may even sneak in a trip to the west coast of FL before hand to visit his friend Austin. Somewhere in between that (and video games!) he does manage to get to school. It has been tough for him to keep up with everything between the hospital stays and the obvious negative effects of chemo on a cognitive level, but he trudges on and somehow always gets through another day...but just one at a time.
Please keep the thoughts and prayers coming...they are priceless and a great source of strength and encouragement.
Much love and peace to all,
Patty
Believe it or not I managed to snag George W. away from the Secret Service to take a picture with Christopher. He was very congenial and let Chris know that he admired his strength in fighting such a battle and encouraged him to keep it up. It was a very big moment for this 14 year old and I know that is one day he will always remember!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
A Change in Treatment
He has been feeling pretty good overall with some increase in fatigue and decrease in appetite the last couple days but considering the beating he took with his last round he is doing well.
Lawrence and I met with his Oncologist, Dr. Joyce this week to discuss just where Christopher is at with his disease process and to find out what his plans are for the final 3 rounds of this chemo protocol. Thank God for another set of ears as I tend to tune out when I have heard enough clamor and tune in just in time to say what is on my mind...always seeking the "bottom line" of course. (Thank you Lawrence for your continued support!)
Though some clarity was gained there was definitely no bottom line and still much uncertainty around Christopher's treatment options. One of the reasons we met with Dr. Joyce is that Chris was ready to call it quits after round 3 due and there was talk about the need to stop one of the drugs. Before leaving the room, Christopher let Dr. Joyce know that his last round of chemo was "hell" and wanted to know what options he had if he opted out of the last 3 cycles. He had had enough.
The discussion that followed, both with and without Chris present was very lengthy and I am not sure I could reiterate if I tried so I will summarize as best I can.
At this point, assuming there are no other signs of metastases, Chris has a 1/4 chance of survival. If he does have another recurrence his odds go down considerably. Though every attempt would be made to remove any more lesions that MAY show up, there is a limit on how much surgery can be done. Dr. Joyce did point out that for treatment of Osteosarcoma to be successful chemo alone will not work, that the surgery is really more effective and necessary.
We are assuming Chris is free of any tumors right now and the goal with the chemo is to keep it that way. The fact that he had a recurrence means he has disease running through his system that needs to be arrested before it can form any more tumor. Because there is still a good possibility of recurrence when this chemo stops, Dr. Joyce also believes it is necessary to do somewhere between 18 months and 2 years of Interferon treatments.
We asked if Chris' chance of survival would go down if he did stop chemo now and just do his scans and surgery when necessary. We also talked about putting Chris on a chemo pill that he could take at home and avoid life in the hospital. While it would pose some of the same side effects, it is a much more mild dose and not as hard on his system.
Again, no real definitive answers other than the current aggressive protocol is meant to "cure" Chris and keep him disease free. The other modalities (the pill form) would be considered palliative treatment and meant only to slow down the process. There is just not enough data/studies to really give him or anyone else in this situation many viable options.
My concern, like most of his family and friends, is that quality of life be considered a priority. So we are carefully still weighing his options.
On Friday Christopher will have a bone scan and an MRI of his leg to see if his disease has metastasized to any of his bones. He will have another Chest CT after his next round to use as a comparison to the one done after his first 2 cycles. This comparison should better define the areas that lit up on the last CT and are assumed to be scar tissue or blood vessels.
If all tests show no evidence of disease the plan is to finish the final 2 cycles of this chemo protocol. Dr. Joyce has decided also to discontinue the use of Ifosfamide due to it's harsh effect on the kidneys and replace it with Cytoxan. (the lesser of 2 evils I suppose)
If any lesions show up, chemo will stop and the priority will be surgery. Then the dreaded discussion begins again on what to do next. Considering Chris has maxxed out on the drugs most used to treat Osteosarcoma there was not even a guess on what the next step should be.
I know what Chris wants to do next...take a vacation to CA for his spring break and be done with chemo and surgery so he can plan a cruise this summer. So...until we know more I will leave it at that!
Thanks for hanging through this update. I hope it made some sense. Believe me it really is even more confusing and exhausting than it sounds!
Still...we have faith and hope and continue to persevere.
Much peace to you all.
Patty
Sunday, January 23, 2011
A Nauseating 3rd Round
Though he took quite a beating he managed to bounce back well enough to make it the long awaited Linkin Park concert in Tampa! Many many thanks to Dean for the incredible seats and backstage passes. It was a much deserved treat for Christopher to not only see his favorite band in concert but meet them as well! A great end to a rough week!
In less than 10 days following his admission to chemo his blood counts went from over 5,000 to under 70. Once again we are hoping to avoid nuetrapenia and a trip to the ER with a fever.
Next week I meet with his oncologist to discuss the next 3 months of Christopher's treatment. There may be some changes where one of the drugs may be tapered down or discontinued due to the risk of heavy side effects. We may even opt for an entirely different protocol. There is alot to consider and a much to think about, but primarily Christopher's well being and quality of life are the main considerations. His Dr.'s are still very determined to put him in complete remission so we are eager to see what they have to say and what his prognosis is at this point.
As always your thoughts and prayers are welcomed and much appreciated.
To a fever free "in between" time!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Happy 14th Christopher!
Special thanks to Nick for his patience and guidance throughout the day and for taking the time the teach Chris about sporting clays. Many, many thanks as well to Clyde for his kindness and generosity. It was very much appreciated and great to see such a well run and friendly operation.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Fever #2 Right on Schedule
We also got the results of Christopher's last Chest CT. It seems to be OK (free of any lesions), however, (there is always a "but"), there are areas that show up which are assumed to be scar tissue and another two new areas that appear to be blood vessels. So I am going with a clean scan but I will admit I will feel better next month when I see improvements on those questionable areas.
We also learned that his chemo protocol might be cut short as he will have maxxed out on one of the drugs-Ifosfamide (IFEX). He is due to go in this Saturday, January 15th for his 3rd cycle and should be home Thursday evening. What will happen after is to be determined. A bit disheartening...frustrating...even scary maybe? You bet. We were warned that this is experimental, that there is no silver bullet that can cure Osteosarcoma but I didn't realize that this plan would be cut short and that what comes next will be even more uncertain. Seems I always have a question to which there is really no definitive answer...my own "path" so to speak and lesson in letting go and trusting what will be. Still, Christopher continues to hang tough and fight like a true champ. He is pretty unaffected by the many bumps in the road and I believe that is what allows him to persevere.
I will be sure to provide more on the next step with his treatment when I talk to his oncologist.
Until then we hope for a quiet chemo week and look forward to a big treat for Christopher next weekend!
Below is Christopher with Eric Mason of Premier Physical Therapy.
In between hospital stays Chris has had to have physical therapy again to try and relieve some of the pain he has been having on his left knee. Much of that comes from compensating for the prosthetic's mechanics. Eric, and his partner Chris were very effective in correcting Christopher's gait and making the necessary changes and recommendations for his prosthesis. It has made a big difference so far and hopefully will alleviate some of his symptoms.